Kayla. Party of 1...hopefully not forever

I couldn't shake the feeling of loneliness today. It wasn't a sense of missing something, but just of loneliness. Thoughts crossed my mind of contacting ex's who are still chasing me, because I know they would come over in a heartbeat. The thing stopping me is the fact that if I repeat the past I might miss out on a person who will be amazing for me.

Everyday I face the world thinking I might meet him today... clearly I haven't been right yet, but someday I will be. You would think I would pay more attention to my appearance when I leave my house. But at the same time I also don't want them to think I am dolled up all the time and expect it. I am a tomboy at heart and I love not wearing makeup and wearing baggy sweatpants. If I were a guy I would be pretty disappointed if the girl I was dating looked like a 10 all the time, but then after a few months realize she would rather look like a couch potato. I just play it safe and run right in the middle 90% of my life and the other 10% I pull out all the stops and look like a Million Bucks!